FROM ME TO YOU

From me to you in the ‘Just when the caterpillar thought the world was ending…’ card – 7/13/07
Dear 2.10,
No more yelling. I CAN NOT TAKE IT. We can’t take it. I am here 24/7 for you and I have NO ONE to talk to. NO ONE - because I’m not allowed to talk to you. I need for you to initiate 5 min. a week to check on how I’m doing inside through all of this. And if 5 min. is too much to ask, you need to tell me to my face. I am the strongest person you will ever in this lifetime meet, but I am human and I am destructible. Acid baths and insignificance will destroy my health, my psyche, and self esteem, and I will be of no use to either one of us. All of the ‘I’m sorry’s’ in the world don’t make wounds evaporate. Actions are the only real statement we have. I think I’ve made it pretty clear where I stand. I love you. I know what you’re going through better than anyone, and I know you’re trying, but if my insides aren’t valued, I am nothing. I love you more than anything. I hope you have a better day than morning. I will miss you terribly tonight.